1/365 “Myself” nr. 1

1/365 “Myself” nr. 1, a photo by Luca Rossini on Flickr.

Sony RX1, 35mm f2 Carl Zeiss
ISO100, f/20, 1/125, raw
200W strobe on boom, over subject’s head, 60×60 soft-box

My 365 format doesn’t start, as most do, from the first of the year, but rather from my birthday, the 12th of February, this way each 365 follows an age in my life. It started this way also because I bought myself a Sony NEX-7 as a present, last year. This year I got the little, amazing, full-frame, 35mm f2 Carl Zeiss, all metal RX1 camera, and I have some support to the blog directly from  Sony.
Now, as explained in the blog introduction, this 365 will be divided into twelve different monthly sub-projects. That is, each 12th of the month I chose a theme/subject and then I explore it for the following 28/30/31 days. This is a major difference from the kind of personal journal I took during the past 365(+1) Days of NEX-7 project, and I feel it will increase the challenge of this whole project of quite a big load.
Since today is my birthday, and I have too much work to do to be properly dedicating the day to myself, I decided to call “Myself” the first monthly theme. I will start this project looking (not only photographically) at what I am, how I see myself, who I want to be, how my presence or absence does affect what surrounds me, etc.
So, here I am, this is me the day of my (busy) thirty-forth birthday, a day in which, if wasn’t for the fact that a project ends and another starts, I would just try to stay asleep as long as possible, avoiding phone calls, Facebook messages, emails, and parties. I don’t know when it happened, I remember enjoying my birthdays till I was eighteen, but then, besides the crazy party for my thirties, I never really liked any of them.
I know I’m supposed to have fun, and people get sick of me not smiling or being so shy, but to me the birthday is the day to evaluate what I did in the past year and what is my current position in life, and I rarely happen to be really fond of the outcomes. There’s a good thing, though: the very day after my birthday I always wake up ready to fight the world and strongly motivated to move on in life so to get, the year after, where I want to be. Maybe I never success, but I surely keep trying hard, and this is how life works, it is never about arriving, but always about moving on.